As a creative person I have had to troubleshoot to figure how I can “make a living” being who I am and doing what I love. It seems an easy task, like a spoiled “job” to “just” be oneself and express that…….but I have found it is the hardest and most rewarding career track I could be on. Everyday I am required to redefine, question, analyze, accept, dissect and then reassemble. Those who look upon artists as floozy and flamboyant only, are ridiculously naive to what the task of being, and selling, oneself really entails. Lately there seems to be a disingenuous attitude to the phrase ” starving artist” like it is the line for the lazy and self indulgent artists to make easy $. Well, to be honest I often do feel starved……but it is not for food or any of the conventional needs of society that I feel I need to purge and fast from more and more; It is for a more substantial and Raw experience and interaction with all that co-exists on this planet. I deeply crave and Hunger for Heartfelt and True interactions, like the ones I feel when in the wilderness…..where beings are allowed to be “professional” about existing as and expressing their whole individual form. Sometimes I can find the best friend in a plant, as I know that they are not going to trick, coerce or front in a way to project something that they are truly not. I am sick of frauds!! Frauds are also the ones who knock me off my path by making me feel it is not enough or impressive to be myself and fully embody the experience this. I am no longer going to allow for this obstacle in my path, I know the one I am on is not always clear and defined but it is held up and allowed to proceed by a deeper knowing, a faith that the artist in me finds a way to uphold come what may. Upholding this flame and flare in myself is a full time job and I am willing to struggle to fulfill the commitment to my own “giddy”. Most people I see deny the childlike way of being fully in their JOY, they get convinced that they need to sacrifice whatever they “feel” order to make $ that will then allow or enable them to get what they want and feel truly happy. THe pattern seems to be giving all your time and energy into something that you may not believe in or feel good about, numbing and coping with this by chemical rushes, and in time, totally forgetting and sabotaging that delightful inner spirit! I hate to seem pessimistic, but I have seem this happen to people I love and care about and it seems so sad to me. I am fighting for the ” JOb” of the future to be Being your Best and true self……it takes soooo much good work that will ACTUally pay you back in bigger rewards than flammable green paper. I am holding faith that if I am filling up with my indestructible JOY, then all the other fortunes I need or dream of will follow. Not only for me, but I hope to feel so full of Goodness and desire, that I can then begin the positive flow of healing and Love to bubble over my being and into the world out there. I have A LOT of work to do, and we all do, so lets begin the work of being REAL and fully human. Life should only be an interview with yourself, everyday until you have dissolved the little inner critic and can just BE, ENjoy, and then share this!! Carve your Own happiness and come play! Do not wait for outside Permission. GLow, Grow, and Gracefully UNfold.